Thursday, July 19, 2012

Why I'm appearing as Botgirl Questi on a live-voiced Inside the Avatar Studio

Bevan Whitfield invited me to be the guest on this month's edition of Inside the Avatar Studio. Since it's a live talk show, my first thought was to appear as usual through my fourworlds identity. The mixed gender thing works for Lauren Weyland, but it's not Botgirl's schtick. Voicing Botgirl's usual form with my human vocal cords would be as creepy and inauthentic as Joss Wheldon reading Buffy or JK Rowling performing Voldermort.

That said, wearing the fourworlds identity and avatar for special occasions feels like pulling an infrequently worn second-hand tuxedo from the back of my closet. (No pun intended.) It's stiff and doesn't quite live up to the occasion. So this time, I've decided to try something different. I'm going to appear on the show as Botgirl Questi, but show up in a visible form that is congruent with the live voice. (Anyone want to go shopping with me for an avatar body and skin?)

After years of musing on the virtual identity, it seems to me that one's name is the most essential carrier of transworld identity. As I wrote in 2010, a name is much more than a label:
In the mundane view of reality, a name is merely a word we use to label the particular entity that is specified. But the deeper truth is that a name plays a role in defining and maintaining our perception of the named object. At an even more profound level, a name actually brings the named into perceptual existence by separating a particular set of attributes from the universe into a discrete object or being.
So fuck it, right? The main downside I see is that I can't disassociate myself from all the pompous punditry that may spew from my virtual lips. Like in this 2010 clip from my last appearance on Inside the Avatar Studio for a panel discussion on Avatar the movie.

12 comments:

Whiskey Day said...

Oh, wow! This'll be hugely interesting! I hope you'll write about the experience afterwards. I'll be curious about the difference for you, or lack of one.

I also wonder if anyone will have a "Wait, THAT's not Botgirl!" moment.

Rowan Derryth said...

Fascinating! Can't wait to see what you come up with.

Botgirl Questi said...

I'm also very curious about what it will feel like, both for me and for viewers. Part of the "Wait, THAT'S not Botgirl!' moment also has to do with claiming the identity fully for myself, in all forms. I think it's going to be a big step forward in walking my "We that is Me" talk. And I do plan on posting a post-mortem here.

Cecil Hirvi said...

No! I'm Botgirl Questi!

michelehyacinth said...

No No!! I'M Botgirl Questi!

Shockwave Plasma said...

LIARS! I'm the real Botgirl Questi

Bevan said...

Thank you so much for being our guest for the 3rd Season Finale of Inside the AvatarStudio. It will be taped and broadcast live on MetaverseTV and we also hope to tape the live Q&A which will follow.

It will be a very exciting show and I know many are looking forward to you and Phelan having a very interesting conversation :-)

Botgirl Questi said...

I am Spartacus!

Bevan said...

I'll let Phelan know asap :-)

Dirk said...

I wonder if it would be interesting to take a scene from Creepy Doll swaps and plunk either Botgirl's head on Fourworld's body or verse vicea...

Botgirl Questi said...

Yeah. That would be creepy.

Chatelaine said...

Show is now linked and up. http://metaversetv.com/blog/2012/07/inside-the-avatar-studio-22/

You done so good! :-)